mothers...mine in particular my relationship with my mother was difficult, I know I'm not alone. she's been gone for eighteen years now, I moved myself and my four cats in with her for the last five months of her life so she could die at home. when I first got there she asked me why I was there, I wasn't quite sure what she meant but I said I'm here because you want to die at home. she looked at me for a while then said, if I were you, given the way I treated you, I wouldn't be here. I just said well, I'm here. she was right, of course. once I moved out of her house I should have never looked back but I did look back, all the time, basically I never left. we all want our mothers to love us and we all want their attention. if they didn't give us enough attention we'd seek negative attention and I did. like most adopted children I wondered what was wrong with me that my birth mother didn't want me. as an adult I understand better but as a child ...
my thoughts. you don't have to agree but please be civil.